Yup, it happened. I could sense it was going to happen, and I tried to stop it, but I just couldn’t. I have fallen off the running wagon, just a few weeks from the Go! St. Louis half marathon. How far have I fallen? After running 9 times for 45 miles in February, I’ve followed that up with four runs and 19 miles this month. No bueno. I basically run once a week, and haven’t done a true long run since early February. I haven’t gone longer than seven miles yet this year, and only have 118 miles total. If I wanted to keep up with my goal of 1000 miles, I should be closer to 250. If I’m going to do it, it’s going to take a lot of work.
Not to say that I’m just sitting on the couch, eating Bon Bons. I’ve been cycling on the trainer, lifting and doing some other stuff. My dad got me a TRX suspension set for a belated Christmas gift, so I’m going to set that up and do some workouts. I’m starting to feel a bit better, even though I’m failing majorly on my running goals. I did a 10k on Monday, 58:3x along the river front (which, by the way, is awfully close to spilling over its banks). There’s virtually no chance I’ll hit my goal of 2 hours in St. Louis. Heck, there’s a chance I may not even run it if I don’t feel I can.
It’s a shame too, because the course looks awesome. The half marathon course stays closer to downtown, the start and finish are close to the hotel I’m staying at, and you get to cross the Mississippi River twice. I’d love to do it, but if I know I’m going to struggle with the cut-off, I probably won’t bother to drive up and save myself the money.
I really think that after NYC, I was just dead. Physically, mentally and emotionally. I felt running was causing me to sleep less, socialize less, and gain weight. I just wasn’t feeling like myself. Maybe I’m projecting other feelings onto running, but lately I just haven’t had a desire to head out for a run very much. I’m sure it didn’t help that the weather this winter has sucked a lot. When it’s been nice, I’ve managed to head out for a few miles every now and then. Hopefully winter is about over, the sun comes up earlier and I can get out for some morning runs again.